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20 May 2015 @ 05:41 pm
A Flower of Love : 6/?  
Title: A Flower of Love : 6
Author: reyahh321
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing: Sakurai Sho x Aiba Masaki
Length: Multi-chaptered.
Disclaimer: Nothing to claim. I wrote a fic as I imagined, that's all.
Summary: Sakurai Sho struggles as he decides to face and tell the truth he's hiding for a long time. He recalls his memories with the man who brought happiness, heartaches and hope in his life.
-Prologue- -1- -2- -3- -4- -5-

I threw my phone and bag on the floor, jumped unto my bed soon as I got inside my room after hours of discussion with my parents… so damn early in the morning.

I kept messing my hair, trying to clear out my headache and tiredness after explaining why I wasn’t home the whole night. I totally got scolded and was told a hundred times about not forgetting to contact them.

I obeyed and apologized for making them worry.

And since I was out because of what happened to Aiba, they eventually gave me a task to take care of my siblings for a week (because my parents planned a short vacation overseas for their wedding anniversary…) instead of a punishment that was to hold my allowance… for a month.

I cringed with the thought. I guess I could handle taking care of my siblings, rather than not having money for the whole month…

Leaving that aside, my head is now thinking about Masaki…

I want to see him already.

I kept my face buried on my pillow when I heard a knock from my door. Too tired to get up, I heard the door being opened and someone entered my room.

“Hey Sho-nii…”

It was Mai.


“You okay?” She asked, while nudging my shoulder.

I raised my head and nodded at her.

“Are you sure?” She sat down on a chair near my desk table.

“I’m fine, Mai. Why are you asking?” I replied while forcing myself to get up and sit upright.

“You’re definitely thinking about Aiba-san now, am I right?”

My eyes went straight to hers and I frowned.

“What makes you say that?”

“Because he’s the one…”


“…you like.”


“Oh come on Sho-nii, admit it already.”

“Admit what?”

“It’s him… and you’re still worried about him.”

I ignored her and pretended to look for my phone.

She continued, “You are definitely looking this bad because of him. And you want to go visit him now but mom and dad told you to stay here and take care of me and Shu.”

“Not really.” I avoided her gaze. “And I don’t look that bad… or do I?”

She approached me, sat on my bed side and suddenly pinched my cheeks.

“Ow! What did you do that for?” I moved her hand away and Mai kept grinning.

“I seriously hate it when you lie to me. I know that face you had since before when we were kids…”

“So…?” I said as I kept rubbing my cheeks to ease the pain.

“So?! Tell me, what I said was true or not?”

I stopped and sighed. “Yes, it’s true… and I’m sorry for lying.”

Mai grinned even more. “Hmmm… So you’re gonna tell him, right?”

“Tell… what?” I looked down because I could definitely feel she’s staring hard at me.

“What you feel!”

“Not yet…” I mumbled.

“Eh? Why not?” She pouted.

“I just can’t.”

“But soon you will, won’t you?”

“I guess…” Now what?

Mai pulled my hand and placed hers over mine.

“Then go! You want to see him, right?”

“I can’t! You do know Mom told me to stay here with you two?! Besides even though I want to-”

She immediately placed her other hand on top of my mouth and she whispered, “Lower your voice nii-chan! I get it already.”

I pulled away from her and just nodded. “Yeah, okay.”

She placed her hand next to her nose and cheek and whispered again, “I tell you what. Once Mom and Dad leaves on the day after tomorrow, you can go and see him. I’ll take care of Shu for a while so better be quick, okay? I promise to keep it secret.”

“You’d do that? Really?”

She replied with a nod.

“But why?”

“Well, I’m guessing he means a lot to you… and even though he’s a guy, I’m perfectly fine with it… because he’s the one whom my big brother fell for… so as your sister, I’m allowing you to go for him!”

I couldn’t help but laugh. My sister is younger than me... and she's awesome.

“Thanks, Mai.” I raised my hand and high fived with her. “On that day, okay?”

“Got it.” She smiled happily as she stood up and left my room.

I got up and took a seat on my desk chair. While looking around my stuff, I noticed that there was a picture frame lying down next to my study lamp. Upon placing it up, I noticed there was a dried up flower inside of it.

That’s when I began to recall my memories about him again.

Oh right, I placed it here, huh? I smiled at the thought.

Hmmm… Where did I place my old phone again? Oh yeah!

I pulled the bottom drawer next to my desk and after pulling some of my things inside, I managed to find it.

I opened my old and dusty phone, turned it on and checked it inside.

After scanning it for a few seconds, I finally found the file I’m looking for.

I decided to send and save it to my current phone. Afterwards, I turned off my old phone again and placed it back inside the drawers.

I checked my current one and opened the file I’ve sent.

It’s the white rose and the stuff toy I gave to him many years ago.

I wonder if he still has it? I hope he still does.

I sighed at the thought, and closed my phone again.

Hmm… What if… What if I…


My thoughts were suddenly distracted when my phone made a sound. I decided to leave the thought for a while when I saw that it was a message from Jun-kun.

From: MatsuJun
To: Me
Aiba’s awake now. He’s smiling again, as always.
Ohno and Nino will be coming later.
Are you coming today? You’re free, right?

I typed in my reply.

From: Me
To: MatsuJun
I can’t. There’s a family thing. I guess maybe 2 days from now.
Don’t tell him I was there last night, alright?
I’m planning on something.

A few seconds after, I received another message.

From: MatsuJun
To: Me
Okay, Lover boy.
I’ll try to come and visit him again once you’re already there.
Take care and See you soon! :)

From: Me
To: MatsuJun
Yeah. Whatever. Thanks.

I sent my last message.

Thank you, Jun-kun. Really.

I closed my phone and while holding it, I began to stretch my arms above my head and bend my neck a bit, trying to flex my stiff muscles. Then, I placed my phone beside the standing picture frame, turned my seat around, and faced the window, smiling at the sight of the clear sky from afar.

I miss you Masaki and I can’t wait to see you again.


Finally on that day, about past 3 in the afternoon, the car engine finally starting was heard, and our parents finally got on our family car. My siblings and I stood in front of our main door and waited for them to leave.

“Sho! Take care of Shu and Mai, okay?” Mom said, and frantically waved at us from the window car of her seat next to Dad’s.

“Yes Mom! Have a safe trip!” I shouted back, and before they turned for the main road, we heard the car honking in reply.

I turned to my left side and saw Mai… and Shu in her arms, also looking back at me.

Mai grinned, and Shu giggling as well. “Go and tell Aiba-san we said Hi, okay?”

I nodded, grabbed my bag that was hidden behind the bush and rushed out of our front gate.

“Stay inside okay? I’ll be back later, maybe in time for dinner!” I told Mai.

“Sure thing. Take care Onii-chan!” She shouted, while Shu waved his short arms as he see me leave. In return, I raised my arms and showed a thumb’s up while running towards where Masaki’s hospital was.

As I dashed towards the place, I tried to look around and saw that in a corner of a street, there was a small flower shop inside. With the idea I had in mind, I immediately bought a bouquet of flowers… fresh white ones… for him.

After getting them, I finally went and passed through the small crowd of people along the way until I reached the hospital. It was almost 5 in the afternoon when I got there. Instead of taking the elevator, I looked for the stairs and passed by the information and the canteen.

There I saw Aiba’s mom eating and chatting with a friend, I guess.

I was thinking of saying my greetings to them first but I didn’t know where my legs brought me, and later did I notice I was already a meter away in front of his private room door.

What am I gonna do? I guess it’s because I was feeling nervous.

Since I’m here already, I guess I’ll go and greet them later.

With the other hand holding the bouquet, I hid it behind my back. I closed my eyes and tried to steady my breathing.

I opened my eyes, stared at the door handle and held it with my free hand. Oh well, here I go. Holding my breath, I slowly slid the door open when I heard somebody inside and said,

“Aiba-kun… I really like you.”

What? I suddenly froze to a stop.

I couldn’t move and my eyes just stayed on the sight of… a girl standing with her back facing me… and the one I love, sitting in bed, staring next to the window whose eyes are looking far away, and a weak, but still beautiful smile placed on his face.

The door has been slightly opened for a while already, and I’m still waiting for them to notice my presence…

Ah, no… I’m hoping he’s the only one to notice me…

But nobody notices… even though I wish that he will.

“Will you go out with me?” I heard her say. I could feel a cold air pass right through me.

I really wanted to speak out and interfere… tell him my feelings instead and that I am finally here...

I was about to step inside and say something… until the words he let out was…

“Okay then...”

With a voice that’s so gentle, weak and quiet…

That made me let go of the flowers I held so tight just fall next to me…

tearing my heart apart…and breaking my happiness, all at once.

I could feel my hands trembling as I tried to close the door slowly again.

I tried to hide myself…hide my unnoticed presence knowing that I never really existed there to him the whole time.

I slowly kneeled down and took the flowers, whose petals are slowly shedding because of my carelessness.

I tried picking up each petal that fell, while my eyes are starting to get wet.

I can’t… I shouldn’t…

I kept saying that in my mind.

But I couldn’t help it.

The petals just kept falling, along with my tears, as I tried not to cry.

And it just doesn’t stop.

So I decided to give up on picking everything that fell…
Stood up… walk and go towards the top of the building...
Where I could throw these wasted flowers…
Then sit, hide, cry out loud and just… be alone.

Upon reaching the rooftop, I sat down and leaned on the wall near the exit door.
I threw the flowers to my side and buried my face towards my knees.

*ring* *ring* *ring* *ring*

My phone was ringing, and even though I didn’t want to answer it, I noticed it was from Jun so I took it.

‘Sho, where are you? Are you already in the hospital?’

I laughed. ‘Yeah…I’m on the rooftop.’


‘Nothing…’ I replied.



‘I’ll come and get you then. Stay there, okay?’ Jun then ordered me.


*Phone call ended*

I guess I’ve got to explain later huh…

I placed my phone inside my pocket and leaned my head against the wall.

I sighed, as I felt another teardrop fall down my cheeks.

So this is how it feels huh? I chuckled, and I just held my chest that throbs in pain.

Now I know how it hurts… how it terribly hurts…
; To fall in love, and not to be loved in return...
By someone like you… Masaki.


Notes: I'm really sorry for breaking the promise and for the super delay.Nothing to say for now. I'll update again... soon. Thanks for reading. ;)
Current Mood: lonelylonely
nadzsanznadzsanz on May 20th, 2015 10:24 am (UTC)
hey, which story is this?
Ill come back later when i know where i left or what story is this. Dont feel lonely. Haha.
reyahh321: Sakuraireyahh321 on May 20th, 2015 10:27 am (UTC)
okay. thanks~ hehe
i forgot to reply to you last time. sorry, i was busy moving from place to place. ^_^
nadzsanznadzsanz on May 20th, 2015 11:13 am (UTC)
i got it! I read from the start and got nothing much except the dog and orange part. Hahaha.

Poor sho! Huhu.

Thank you. Update soon ne :b

na.. About that, its ok :)
reyahh321: Sakuraireyahh321 on May 20th, 2015 11:37 am (UTC)
The stalker thing was the longest part of this fic, wasn't it?
Yeah, I'm so bad hurting Sho. Forgive me.

Btw, do you have any idea about the story behind Aiba's stuff toy? Just curious coz I don't really know why he had that in the past.

Thanks for catching up again. :-)
nadzsanznadzsanz on May 20th, 2015 01:34 pm (UTC)
yup! You hurt aiba in one shot as i can remember Dx. Please let them both be together.

Gomen. I got to know all those thing in fic. So i dont know about it. Sorry.
reyahh321: Sakuraireyahh321 on May 23rd, 2015 05:56 pm (UTC)
i did, sorry. *sniff* I will, soon. Sakurai and Aiba are meant for each other~ ^^

I see. It's alright, thanks. :)
atenea005atenea005 on May 20th, 2015 12:56 pm (UTC)
new update!!!!!!after long time, yes!!! thank you!:D
reyahh321: Sakuraireyahh321 on May 20th, 2015 09:46 pm (UTC)
you're welcome. ^^
simopimosimopimo on May 21st, 2015 10:01 am (UTC)
I'm really happy to have found this doc just now. Of course I've read "returning rain", I really love it. Now I read this one. I hope you'll post soon a new chapter! Read 2 FF in a day is so nice but then comes the wait! :)
I really hope that all this angst will comes to an end sooner or later. They love each other since forever, it's unfair to suffer for stupid
Whenever I see angst I and hoping in some fluff in the end!:)
reyahh321: sa rabu?reyahh321 on May 22nd, 2015 09:54 am (UTC)
thank you for reading. i'm glad to be able to read and learn someone enjoys my fic. it's not perfectly written, but thank you for giving my fic a chance. i'll be updating it really soon so do wait for it.
misunderstandings are always there, but we can always fix it... and i'll work on how i'll do that for them.

don't worry, i love them together so i'll add the fluff somewhere... maybe soon or not? hahaha. too bitter am i? nah, i'll do my best. they deserve each other. :D
simopimosimopimo on May 22nd, 2015 04:01 pm (UTC)
Well, is not that I'm against Angst. i'm against angst if I can't have an happy ending :)
I wrote only 2 angst in my life. One from Aiba's POV and one from Sho's. But in the end I had to write a third story to give them an happy ending 'cos i felt so sorry for them (and for me! ) XD
reyahh321: Sakuraireyahh321 on May 23rd, 2015 02:47 pm (UTC)
oohhh! then i'll try my best to end it well~
i am pretty weak at angst between sakurai and aiba... hihi ^^