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23 May 2015 @ 11:59 pm
A Flower of Love : 7/?  
Title: A Flower of Love : 7
Author: reyahh321
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing: Sakurai Sho x Aiba Masaki
Length: Multi-chaptered.
Disclaimer: Nothing to claim. I wrote a fic as I imagined, that's all.
Summary: Sakurai Sho struggles as he decides to face and tell the truth he's hiding for a long time. He recalls his memories with the man who brought happiness, heartaches and hope in his life.
-Prologue- -1- -2- -3- -4- -5- -6-

I didn’t know I fell asleep until I felt something warm was nudged on next to my cheek.

Wha…? I opened my eyes and there I noticed.

Oh, It’s Jun-kun.

I looked up and saw him holding out a can of warm coffee in front of me, looking out far but not facing me, and with a slight smirk on his face.

“Thanks…” I told him as I reached for it.

I saw him nodding and later on heard him sighing. I began patting the floor on my other side, then started rubbing the can on my palms afterward, trying to feel the heat from it for a bit before pulling the top to open it.

He then sat beside me, reached for another can from his bag, shaking it first before opening it as well.

We sat there together in silence, letting the warm drinks we have calm ourselves, in contrast with the weather and the cool wind hitting over us.

It’s almost the end of March, and though cherry blossoms are yet to bloom, it’s still too cold and is not really a good time to stay out for so long.

Jun and I kept sipping our drinks bit by bit but not too hurriedly, and just waited for each other to finish. This quiet time and his presence meant a lot to me right now, that’s why I’m glad…

MatsuJun, you really are a nice person.

But knowing the youngest of our group, he can’t stay waiting for me to speak up that long so upon finishing his, he then broke the silence and began to speak.

“Your eyes look terrible right now.” I chuckled at his comment.

“Yeah, I couldn’t help it.” I kept my eyes closed and took another sip from my drink.

Ahh.. My can is getting lighter.

“So… I’m thinking whether I should ask you about earlier… but if I can’t, it’s up to you then if you’d like to tell me about it instead.” Then he paused. “I can always lend an ear for you, you know.” I heard him say, while patting my shoulder.

“Thanks.” I had to exhale quite heavily, face and smile to him weakly. Then I told him, “Go on, ask away.”

He nodded in return. “Okay then. Sho-kun, what happened?”

I placed the aluminum can beside me, before slowly saying,

“He’s dating someone already.”

The younger opened his mouth a bit, but didn’t say a word. While he kept silent, I continued.

“A girl confessed to him, you know… I heard it just before I got to enter his room.”

My voice then started to quiver. “ I-I wanted to barge in and stop her b-but my feet wouldn’t m-move...”

I gulped. “I was planning to tell him about what I feel for him but then I was already too l-late...”

“…because I was there when he accepted it.” I couldn’t help but sigh.

Jun cleared his throat for a bit. “But did he say he likes her back?”

I frowned at him.

“Does he need to? He’s already with her so it’s obvious he must have liked her too!”

The younger then rubbed his temples and sighed again as well. “Knowing Aiba-kun, I’m guessing he’s having a hard time right now. Maybe he’s feeling lonely… or maybe he just accepted her feelings because he’s too kind enough to reject her… even to make or see her cry.”

He took one of the scattered petals from the floor, stared at it while he continued. “But Sho-kun, despite the happy face he shows to us, I believe that our support is the thing he needs the most right now, so try to overcome that inner pain of yours and just do your best to make him happy.”

“I don’t know… It’s hard.” I said, worriedly.

“I know it’s hard, but you must not give up. I don’t know if you’d believe me or not, but my gut just tells me he needs and wants the love of someone else… and it’s definitely not her.”

While gazing at the clouds and staring at the plain colored sky, I responded back. “Jun-kun, I know you’re doing your best to make me feel better… and for that, I appreciate it a lot. With what you said, I guess…” I paused as my eyes went to the flowers that were placed just now by the younger, in front of me.

I stared at it for a second and continued, “I’ll think about it then…” while holding unto it tight.

“Hmmm… Okay. Whatever you decide, I’ll respect it. But knowing you Sho-kun, I think no one can ever surpass your love for Aiba-kun.”

I flushed with embarrassment at his sudden words.

I can’t believe how this guy speaks in a matured way more than me.

He then smiled, stood up and took the empty cans and placed it in the nearby trash bin. “So, let’s go back?” He asked, while extending his hand to me.

I took it and got up as well. I removed some of the visible dirt on my pants before answering back.

“I’ll pass. I feel awkward going back there.” I pushed the bouquet towards MatsuJun’s hand.

“But you can give this to him. I bought it for him so it’d be a waste to throw it away now, right?”

“Are you... sure?”

“Yeah.” I took my bag and placed it on my back. “I have to go ahead, Jun-kun,” I said while opening the door. “I’ve got to go because my siblings are waiting for me.”

The younger man raised the flowers on his hand and spoke, “Should I-“ and then he stopped when I shook my head.

Please don’t.

He definitely wanted to complain but he eventually gave up. So he asked one last time. “Okay. See you next week, then?”

I nodded, then went down and left.

I ran back home and just got in time before dinner. Mai and Shu were already in the dining table and they greeted me once I got back home.

But upon seeing the look on my face, they didn’t say a thing anymore and just kept me company.

After washing the dishes and drying them off, I sat down on our couch and stayed in the living room for a while. Mai was carrying Shu, who was sleeping next to her shoulder, and when she saw me sitting alone, she just squeezed my shoulder and patted my back a bit and said quietly, “Be strong, onii-chan. Goodnight,” before she went upstairs.

I smiled at her concern.

I began to think about a lot of things that night that it made me tired, that I did not even know when I started to close my eyes and just... fall asleep.


We’re in Hawaii now.

It’s the last week of the month, and last week ended so quickly that it gave me some time to think about my feelings… that still hurts for him.

After that day, I didn’t have the courage to visit him again… thinking that someone else is already there for him.

I didn’t really go out of our house after that and I was even scolded by Mai for being childish when I told her about what happened that day. She called me weak, but I didn’t care at all. But still, she told me I shouldn’t give up on him easily just because he was dating someone else.

Just like Jun-kun, Mai didn’t believe he went out with her because he likes her.

I was stubborn, really, but I guess she’s right.

It’s not like me to give up on something easily.

But to give up on someone, I’m not so sure myself.

When I got a call from my manager that Aiba’s been discharged on the same day we’ll be leaving for Hawaii, I told to myself to try my best to look normal, be normal and stay normal, in order for the others not to worry and to stay well and the same, for his sake.

I heard from our manager as well that while we’re in Hawaii, there’d already been a change of plans and that he won’t be able to take part on most of the activities that requires too much movement. Since he’s still just recovering, the four of us had to do our part well.

Upon arriving at the event with the rest of them, I immediately started doing my role of cheering the people, or the fans that’ve showed up there for us…

But I’m being way highly active this time, not just for the fans, but to make him happy as well.

It was really tiring to be this energetic and to keep on actively smiling the whole time… but it does pay off eventually because I could hear his ever unique laughter again.

But there were moments that I could definitely see the sadness in his eyes, whenever he's alone.

I tried approaching him once but he notices and then tells me that he’s okay and just told us not to worry… that we should just enjoy and have fun with the rest of the fans.

Jun would later catch up to me and said that as much as we like to ask him, he told me not to think too much for now since we were all still in the middle of working.

I sighed.

I know I’m trying too hard and I am still doubting if I could be someone whom he needs… as Jun says… even though I know he already has someone who owns his heart.

It was before sunrise when I heard somebody was in my room. I was forced to wake up by Jun-kun, who planned to trick every one of us so early in the morning. When the lights went on, I saw Jun, the greatest brat and the lanky guy were the ones who kept shaking me to get up from bed.

Obliging to their request of leaving the room and before we started going to where Ohno’s room was, I noticed something that made my entire self-wake up.

Could it be?

I wasn’t sure about it because I didn’t see it well… so without thinking, I just held the lanky guy’s hand and it made him stop moving.

“…n?” He turned around because of my sudden hold and that’s when I finally saw it.

It's the brown colored plush dog I gave to him… years ago.

He still has it…

and I couldn’t help but smile.

Then I heard his voice again as he messed up my bed hair, “You all right?” He asked.

I wondered about what he said, and only then I realized just about seconds later … that I am still holding his hand. I finally let him go and immediately stood up. “Ah… A-Aiba-chan!” I just called him out loud making him confused.

“What is it?”

I didn’t know what got into me that I just pointed at the thing he was holding and asked, “What’s that?”

He was startled about it for a second, but later didn't mind it so he replied, “This? It’s a stuffed animal.”

Oops. Duh. I know it’s a stuffed animal. What in the world am I asking?

“Oh, right.” I gulped.

“Uh… Is it a gift from someone?”

What. the. W-Why did I say that!? Me and my stupid mouth… I shouldn’t have said and asked any fur-

“Why, yes. Somebody… uhm, a good friend gave it to me…?”

“I see.” Wait. Friend? What! Oh!!! Does he know? Ah, wait… I didn’t tell him. He doesn’t know it was from me.

I sighed. Oh well, I guess this is better since he considered me/the secret me/stranger a… 'friend'.

He really is such a kind person.

“Hey guys? Let’s go now!” Jun said from the corridor with Nino beside, pulling him on his t-shirt telling him to quiet his voice down.

Then I heard Aiba chuckled. “Still sleepy huh, Sho-chan?” I blushed, while he kept smiling at me and said, “Come on. We’ve got to go wake Leader up,” as he went and walked towards the door.

'Sho-chan', He said.

I could feel my face flushing and my heart fluttering again.

I marched towards the corridor and started goofing off on the camera again. I’m in a good mood… and with Jun-kun noticing, he asked me quietly while we were walking towards Ohno’s room.

I told him…that I’ve finally made my decision.

So MatsuJun just smiled back, and didn’t ask me anymore upon reaching the door.

I took a glance at the lanky guy again just a bit before they opened the room.

I guess I won’t be giving up on him just yet because…

Even without him noticing, I’ve always been right by his side.

That’s why, I hope you’d notice my feelings for you soon…

And I’ll make sure that I’ll be the one to hold and keep you in my arms instead.


It’s because....you're the one I love, Masaki.

I love you.

That I'll always do.


A/Notes: Sorry, but it's still unbeta-ed. Thank you for reading this. Next chapter is coming soon... I hope everything in my RL will be okay soon.  ;/
Current Mood: worriedworried
nadzsanznadzsanz on May 23rd, 2015 06:31 pm (UTC)
yup dont give up sho-kun!
will they be together in next chapter? hehe..

an update~ yay!
Thank You :)
perkyandproudperkyandproud on May 24th, 2015 07:52 pm (UTC)
Ah...so worth the wait! I love these :)
simopimosimopimo on June 30th, 2015 02:44 pm (UTC)
Can't wait to read what will happen next. I hope everything will be clear between this too, sooner or later! ;)